His Word Was In My Heart
“Then I said, I will not make mention of Him, nor speak any more in His Name. But His Word was in mine heart as a burning fire shut up in my bones, and I was weary with forbearing, and I could not stay.” Jeremiah 20:9
The Lord was dealing with Judah, and was warning them, through the prophet, that destruction was coming because of all of the things they were doing against the Lord GOD. In His unfathomable patience, He warned them, but in his own flesh, the time was trying. Jeremiah, having previously been warned by the Lord of all he would face, grew weary, and lamented even his own birth (Jer 20:14-18) as he began to truly and fully feel the shame he had to endure for righteousness’ sake.
It was so hard, that upon being placed in prison, he began to pour out the truth of what he had been going through internally. God already knew, but when he poured out his heart, God heard and ensured that it was written down in scripture. After being told by God to say violent things toward the nation, and the city of Jerusalem, in His Name, and daily mocked for it, Jeremiah was outcast. No one wanted to hear it. After a while, neither did he wish any longer to speak it and bring more condemnation upon himself from his kinsmen. So, he held back, and the Truth burned within, so that he simply couldn’t do so for long.
Many times I have felt the sting of this emotion. There is only so much a man can handle on his own. So, it is encouraging for me when I see a man of God in the Bible suffer through some of the things I suffer within. Praise God that, as Jeremiah brought his inner voice to what he was internally experiencing in his heart, he remembered that the Lord was with him. It is only God, burning within me, that gives me strength to carry on, and it is passages like this which remind me to just lean on Jesus:
“But the Lord is with me as a mighty terrible One: therefore my persecutors shall stumble, and they shall not prevail: they shall be greatly ashamed; for they shall not prosper: their everlasting confusion shall never be forgotten. But, O Lord of hosts, that triest the righteous, and seest the reins and the heart, let me see Thy vengeance on them: for unto Thee have I opened my cause. Sing unto the Lord, praise ye the Lord: for He hath delivered the soul of the poor from the hand of evildoers.” Jeremiah 20:11-13
It is God Who sees what is really going on in our hearts. Even if we don’t verbalize what we feel, God knows. He knows the doubts, the fears, and the questions. When we want to ask Him where things are headed, but we don’t because it would be presumptuous to ask for answers only He could know, He still knows. He sees our reins and our hearts. He tries the righteous. We are the righteous, within Christ. Why does He try us? Why must we go through trials such as did the prophet?
“That the trial of your faith, being much more precious than of gold that perisheth, though it be tried with fire, might be found unto praise and honour and glory at the appearing of Jesus Christ:” I Peter 1:7
Everything that Jeremiah was saying, after being told to say such by God, was going to happen to Jerusalem, because God knew their hearts, too. He knew they would not turn from their wicked ways, but in His mercy, He spoke the warning through His faithful servant to both physically give and opportunity for repentance, and to prove His servant Jeremiah, both to God and to himself. Even after he cried out what he was feeling, God still used him and blessed him in seeing the Word of the Lord come to pass.
May we continue to follow Jesus, no matter the physical circumstance, no matter how we feel, and no matter what the naysayers say. Jesus is the Lord, and He is always for us, therefore, who could truly be against us?
Lord GOD, thank You for writing the prophets experience down for us. Thank You for showing us that what we feel at times is not unknown to you, nor is it uncommon. Thank You for never forsaking us, even in the times when we lament our own lives and question if we are even serving You correctly. Thank You, Father GOD, for sending Your Son among us that we might have the opportunity to hear from You clearly, and to be in a relationship with You, even when we don’t quite hold up our end of the bargain. You are merciful, loving, and kind, slow to anger, full of Love and compassion. Praise Your holy Name!
In the Name of Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior, Amen.