I had a lovely three day weekend!
On Friday, I spent the day running around, getting caught up on my own errands and generally enjoying my day. Coffee, studying the Word, going to my group meeting in the evening. It was a great start to the weekend. A lot of walking and riding the bus to get around.
Saturday, I spent helping a friend with her business. We spent the day running around town, walking through casinos and in and out of convenience marts. A lot of walking, including an evening walk from the coffee shop where she dropped me off, to Walmart down the street and then home.
This morning, I slept in a little, and got ready at the last minute to go to church, and then I took a bus ride to visit my brother across town. We decided that, instead of looking at a new phone for him (he is completely happy with the one he has), we would walk the Linq, down by the High Roller. If you don’t know, the Linq is a shopping plaza and the High Roller is the giant Ferris wheel thingy on the Strip here in Vegas. It was a lot of walking from his apartment, to and through the Linq, and back. I enjoyed the time with my little brother immensely.
Needless to say, this weekend has been a lot of walking for me. I took the bus back from my brother’s apartment and still had the 1.5 mile walk home from the nearest busstop. About halfway through it, my feet really started to hurt. It was sharp pain in my toes hurting, where each step was painful. My skin was burned a bit from so much sun exposure during these last three days, I was developing a horrible headache from having to squint for the sun in my face, and I was thirsty. I was miserable. I wanted to stop: just sit down and rest, get off my feet. But, I wasn’t home yet.
My mind began to roll through all sorts of various things, and before I knew it, I was focusing on nothing more than my misery. I recalled the voice of a friend who knows my current condition. He recently said that I looked miserable. He said that I needed to see that having to walk and ride the bus everywhere was due to the bad decisions I had been making. As I replayed what he said, I started to fall into a sort of depression. The enemy was having his way with me and I began getting condemned and joining in against myself. That was when I had a change of thought enter me. Scripture entered into the fray. The Holy Spirit impressed upon me a reminder:
“…whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things.” Philippians 4:8
As I was reminded, so I began to think. I am forgiven. I am redeemed. I am victorious. God either allows or causes all things. He is sovereign and always in control. God uses all things for good for those who believe.
Peace began to come over me. My frustration melted away. The pain in my feet persisted, and my back began to hurt, but I focused on the Word, and my destination. There would be a hot shower waiting for me, and I embraced the thought of it. But God was not done, and it was at this point He revealed Himself further. He gave me more scripture:
“Ye did run well; who did hinder you that ye should not obey the truth?” Galatians 5:7
He revealed to me that there are many of us, myself included, who become weary. We walk every day in our spirits, chasing after Jesus, yet; somewhere along that line we become tired. We begin to doubt whether we are even walking the way He has asked of us. We think about sitting down and resting. Often times, we actually do. We take a break. We find ourselves not praying over our food, not reading our Bible, not talking to others about The Lord. All because we tire from the fight. We don’t see the results we expected, or we don’t see anything at all immediately, and we want to give up. We still love The Lord, but we begin to wonder if He really cares about our personal lives. We reach the end of our own strength and our own power. It is then that He takes us up in His arms to carry us through, right when we are about to quit.
“My grace is sufficient for thee: for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” 2 Corinthians 12:9a
If we won’t quit, God won’t quit. He will be there right when we need Him the most. He is always there, but until we surrender (not quit, but stop striving) totally, He simply stands at the ready. He is always ready to rescue us from ourselves, our weakness, our tiredness, our defeat. He is a God Who is intimately involved with His people. He wants us to realize that and truly trust in Him for all things. He is faithful to do good. He is our greatest advocate and we are His most beloved creations.
I got home with more energy than I’ve had the whole weekend. That shower melted the pain from my feet and back, and renewed my physical strength that I could share this with you. God truly is good, friends. He cares, He listens, and He is there… always. Don’t give up on the God Who never gives up on us! Keep walking toward the prize. Our home is yet down the road, for we are but nomads, traveling through this world. Sometimes the walk may get rough. Sometimes, we will want to take a break. Don’t. Keep walking, for God walks with us, literally everywhere we go.
“…for ye are the temple of the living God; as God hath said, I will dwell in them, and walk in them; and I will be their God, and they shall be My people.” 2 Corinthians 6:16b